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When you have a family member whom you love more than life and they go through years of a horrible drug addition to the point you have to make that heartwrenching decision to tell them you want nothing more to do with them - well..... I can't even begin to explain all the emotional and physical devastation you go through.
My youngest daughter started on her drug journey after her break-up/divorce. I spent several years enabling her. Trying to save her house, paying bills, buying groceries, etc. until I was forced into bankruptcy myself. It took a long time but I finally told her to never call or come over again. That was the hardest thing I had ever done in my life. But it took me a long time that I wasn't helping her by doing for her.
Well, months and months had passed, not hearing from her and one day I found her sitting on my patio and she said those words I had been dying to hear for years - "Mom, I need help, can you help me get into rehab?" And, that's exactly what we did. I made her call to make the arrangements. Long story short - she went to residential rehab for 10 months. That was 2 years ago. She has been clean and sober for 2 years now. She has a good job and a nice home and just recently bought a car. The responsible person I had always known is back. It's so wonderful to see where she has come these past 2 years.
I've never put all this in writing before - maybe it's my time for some self-therapy. This has all been brought to the forefront because she just recently went through an emotional trauma with a devasting and very hurtfull break-up with her boyfriend. I encouraged her to get back to her NA meetings (which I try to attend as many as I can with her for support) and after her very first meeting - I can't explain the transformation in her. She's smiling again, she sounds happy, etc. What a blessing.
Thank God for NA and AA and all the wonderful people who particapate in these meetings. They do save lives. I'm so grateful. With God's help and guidance she's going to be just fine.
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